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We Found Love (Cover) - US

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Hmm…who are these “several people” who wish I did not come over? All I abide by is what My tells me and he tells me no one in the family minds.  Your mom has personally told me as long as My wants me over, I am welcomed any time.  I have not disrespected your parents or family - all these posts have become a personal attack, and mine - reactions directed at you. Of course, if there are repercussions for both our posts - I’m not so sure they affect me and My as much as they affect you. So please, don’t question my common sense. There is only one person lacking common sense that keeps pushing for more drama and tension within your family. And it’s not me, your family members, or My.

Sigh…I have too much pride in myself than to stay silent and have this person demean me but after I say my piece, I feel dumbed down. Maybe I should never have sunk to her level. There’s a fine line between right and wrong especially when it involves family vs non.  I wish I had the patience to just turn the other cheek. But I’m tired of taking all this stupid shit- I can’t just let it go. I always felt like fighting was never the answer, but this is on another level. =\

My: I haven’t given up on you. Please know that. Things are hard now but it will get better and you will see that there’s always a challenge in every aspect of life. Get thru it and you will love what you were fighting for even more.

<3 How blessed I am to have you in my life. I guess that saying holds true, “Nothing worth having ever comes easy.”   Cheesy, I know. But I am a cheeseball. But man, did not know it would be this hard. The worst feeling is putting him in that tough position. I would say for him not to get involved, but he is very much clearly involved. =\

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The last week has been crazy.

I hate posting about deep, personal issues and if I post an entry that is fucking sad and pathetic, just know I felt like rock bottom at that moment and just needed an outlet - badly. But I’m gonna post and address some things and you can continue on posting shit about people on your fucking blog, but this might be the last personal, nasty entry because you might find satisfaction in it - but I DON’T.

First off, TO YOU -

Stop telling me to stop complaining about what you post on your blog. Or cause a fucking ruckus when I decide to post on mine. I never TOLD you to stop posting or be careful what you post. If My or your mom tells you to stop, that’s his and her decision. I told My that it’s your decision what you want to post on your blog - but I also told him that if you’re gonna post hurtful or mean things, TO ME, - don’t expect me to read it and not have a reaction.  I’ve sat through a year of your posts, reading it and keeping it to myself.  At the point where I didn’t care anymore from putting up with your brother’s treatment, I felt entitled to react however which way I wanted.

And that post about what your brother said about you wasn’t a personal attack on how he FEELS about you.  He loves you and you fucking know it. It was a personal reaction to “WHY THE FUCK SHOULD I CARE WHAT LINDA THINKS OF ME?” and your “HE CAN DO BETTER.”  But, of course- it has to turn into some big explosion of an issue and has to be about how he perceives you, personally - when you know he hasn’t been himself lately and probably wasn’t himself when he said that. Do I regret posting it? No. Do I regret involving My? Yes. Very much.  Even writing this entry, I feel so nasty but I feel the need to stoop to your level if you’re gonna act crazy - I can act crazy, too.

In terms of the breakup, think what you want. But addressing the blame on you, no, I didn’t blame you. I said the blog is TRUE. It’s objective and sound advice. Linda gives OBJECTIVE advice on our relationship, and she points out GOOD POINTS.  My best friend, mom, and cousin say the same thing.  If I’m too dependent the relationship won’t work.  If he treats me bad, and I’ve grown so unhealthy from being unhappy, then leave.  I said it opened my eyes amongst other things…but YOU, you freakin’ only hear what you want to hear and think “Fern fucking blamed the ENTIRE breakup on my blog entry.”  That was so far from the case. He knows my issues, and how he treated me.  Did I leave to grow to be better for my own personal reasons? YES. But the main reason I left? His treatment towards me.  I have a lot to work out, but he was willing to suffer and learn with me through it. Would I really have told my parents about the breakup if it weren’t real?  And not eat or sleep for days? How does one go about faking that? But that’s an entirely different thing and I don’t feel the need to explain myself on your whole accusation of that. Maybe I would have before to you, but after your complete and utter honest blog addressed to me, my only response is that: GOOD. Don’t talk to me, ever. I picture a very difficult future with My but at the same time, your mom is right - all that matters is me and My and how we feel for each other.

You tell me I never left My alone. I DID. ignored him for so long, ‘til I kept hearing these crazy messages. I told him I wanted space, and I did ignore him 7/10 times he reached out. It’s very hard, to walk away and be heartless towards someone when you still care. When I sought out what to do from his two closest friends, they told me I was doing the right thing and I need to stand my ground and stay strong because they know how he treated me on days he was mad because they would talk about it at work.  They commended me for it.  Same with his sister.  She thought a break would be healthy. Did I begin to respond more to him? YES. Why? This entry may be too personal now, so maybe I won’t type it out - but your brother went above and beyond to get me back and he wouldn’t take no for an answer, even putting his well being on the line.  He let go of any regard or any pride and it hurt me deeply to see him this way.  I was skeptical at first, but having your sister text me that “I’ve never seen him like this.” and for his friends to say I think he has really changed.. really made it hard to shut him out completely ‘cause of course, I still cared.

“You need to learn to forgive.  You may not forget the things he put you through, but I see how hard he tries and I really think you should give him a chance.”

I just wish you didn’t see everything as a personal attack to YOU.  I wish at such a sensitive time, in which I can’t even focus entirely on our issues, you did not write about what you did. In terms of being angry for NOT taking your advice, then that’s up to you. I did seek your advice when I was at my lowest and scared to lose him, - if you want to be angry I didn’t listen or heed your advice, then be angry. Advice to me is simply that- advice.  I thought I had a choice to listen to it, and make up my own decision of whether or not I would follow it.   This entry was out of pure annoyance and a reaction to your crazy post on me. I don’t even owe you any explanation for anything.

This relationship is dead to me.

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